Veeta was on her second interview for the day when I met her. She happened to be sitting next to me on the bus and for a minute I thought I was on the wrong bus and she reassured me I was on the right one and we started talking for the next half an hour or so until my stop arrived. That was an interview I was going to where I came across this person.
Mr Khanna was an 85 year old retired auditor who happened to sit next to me during one of my long waits at an airport. What started out as a conversation to hand the newspaper over took multiple turns into the past and I could see his eyes shine as he was telling me stories of the days in which he could jump and run.
These are two of the people who have crossed paths with me in two of my journeys that I was reminded of today.
I did not know why certain things happened, why I went for that interview if God knew this job wasn’t fit for me. Why did I go till the last round of the interview if I’m not going to get that job. Why this? Why that? Basically a lot of whys!!
That’s when I got a tiny answer today, a mom with two kids was traveling in the bus i took today and I helped the mom, maybe that was why I had to be on the bus today. I randomly smiled at a lady (who definitely thought it was creepy) and perhaps that’s why God wanted me to go that way today.
A lot of things that seemed like coincidences are actually God working behind the scenes for the good of all who love Him and who he cares for.
So it’s okay to not be called back after every interview. It’s okay if we had to go the hospital multiple times for a lot of tests. It’s okay to get low marks.
God is in control. He knows what is best for us.
In our Uber/Ola trending world, how would you feel if your driver could not read the google map and drop you off at the right location?
Not so calm, especially if that is delaying you to your very important meeting that you absolutely must reach on time and since you left home extra early you thought you could save a few pennies by booking the pool/share.
I have felt so helpless that I have no clue where I am nor how to reach my next destination, all I could do was trust my driver to take me to my right destination how much ever time it takes.
If I can give up so much of trust to a man who was matched to me through the wonders of technology to safely(sometimes not so safely) still drop me at my destination, why can’t I let God take the drivers seat in my life?
I used to think that proper study of situations and scenarios would help me list out the pros and cons and help me in my decision making. I have hated waiting for things from my food to my results to my flights. God has never ceased to surprise me in any of these areas now that I look back.
I learned to relinquish and eventually let go of the drivers seat of my life when God asked me- “Why are you downcast,O my soul? Why so disturbed within me?”
And he answered to my cries“ Put your hope in God”
Now I enjoy the views, the scenery, the rain, the sunshine, the mountains and the valleys as my father in heaven is behind the wheels.
When was the last time you visited the beach?
Well I am taking you back there now; remember the hot windy air on your face, or the cool night breeze, the sound of the waves crashing in intervals that you can’t really predict. Imagine yourself sitting on the shore, looking at the never ending building and crashing of waves, receding and crashing over and over again. The tireless cycle. Now you are lost in thought, thinking of absolutely nothing but the beauty of the waves in front of you. How refreshing was that?
Every time I visit the beach, the waters give me a new perspective on life. My last visit was the most fun-filled experience in my life and yet a very educative one too. It left a learning in my life that I still haven’t forgotten. Playing in the water, I lost my glasses. And I, not predicting an event like that to occur, hadn’t carried an extra pair. I was literally blind for the next twenty four hours.
This taught me to put set of spare glasses anywhere and everywhere I go, not only because I may lose it, but also because I learnt how temporary everything really is.
We think right now that losing that wallet or those pair of glasses is the biggest problem of the day, but it doesn’t really matter in the bigger picture because God is in control. I didn’t get lost when I didn’t have my glasses, but I learned how to let go of the fear of the unknown. It wasn’t a major step but a small start to a big step.
TRUST is a five letter word that holds so much in it. But that is indeed a step closer to not being worried of what goes by and anxious about what is to come next. For it says “ The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do.” Psalm 118:6.
Fear is a liar. If God is there with me, whom should I fear?
While shopping, don’t we look for expiration dates? While buying perishable goods, the obvious answer is yes. So we look for something that was produced closer to the date of purchase and so that the product has a longer shelf life.
But do we knowingly or unknowingly put an expiry date on our prayers to God?
You see, it is very easy to lose hope when we have been earnestly praying for something for so long and we do not know whether the answer is a definite “Yes” or “No”, and since it hasn’t been answered for so long we tend to assume it’s a wait and after a while we feel that the prayer might not have reached up to heaven at all. Those are the times we are tempted to take things into our hand and do something about it.
It is a very difficult situation to go through.
Even so while baking bread there is a perfect temperature at which the baker removes it. If it’s removed a bit early, it tastes raw and a bit later, then the bread becomes hard. The baker knows the exact time that the bread must be removed for it to be perfect.
Similarly with God, He knows the exact time to answer our prayers too. He is never too early nor too late. God knows the exact time and what we must go through before He answers our prayers so that we are ready and prepared to enjoy God’s gift.
For if we did not know know the dry deserts, would we have known the value of green land. And if not for the valleys, how would we have known how high the mountains are.
“From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” – Psalm 61:2
Proverbs 3:5- Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
Do we compartmentalize our thoughts or does it all go into the “procrastination” box to be processed later?
Don’t we usually come up with our own understanding of things that happen in our life?
Do we always end up assuming that since we feel that since we fell sick this might not be God’s will and since that path was filled with thorns it might have not been my path .
Let me take you on a tour. There is a stream of water that flows from our land back home in the weirdest possible path through our neighbors land and then into a river. I have always wondered why couldn’t it just be a straight line of the body of water? And why do roads need so many turnings and curves? It just makes driving for a beginner a little too difficult to learn.
So what we don’t realize here is the streams of water actually gets filtered through the multiple paths that it flows and the good filtered water without the mud and the dirt and the waste flows into the final destination – the river. And if not for the turns on the road, how would we reach home and how else would the beginner driver be prepared for unexpected turns on their way?
A lot of things that happen in our life may not have answers that can be understood by us or a clear explanation as to why that is happening. It’s like that when an architect builds a house. We may not understand what his plans are and we just see meaningless structures coming up and our money just flowing out but towards the end when the house is finally done, we may be taken in by surprise by the view.
It is time for us to trust our maker and let him work on our lives because His plans are way beyond our understanding.
Lord, You know by needs and wants. If it’s your will grant them to me, and until then help me hold on to faith and stay stronger and get closer to you. Amen